fahrishta:

You know, it’s poetically overrated but it’s real. The concept that someone comes along and changes you, makes you do things you swore you wouldn’t ever do, makes you unearth a part of yourself that you didn’t know existed. It actually happens. Whether it be positive or negative or a bit of both, take it with you as a step closer to understanding yourself. 

“maybe if i drink another coffee, i will feel better”

“maybe if i buy myself a new sweater, i will feel better”

“maybe if i get so drunk i can’t see, i will feel better”

“maybe if i sleep for fourteen hours, i will feel better”

The start of this semester has not been what I had planned or hoped for it to be. Ive been doing exactly what I said I wouldn’t. I’ve let my loneliness engulf me completely, been thankful for every distraction that came my way, gave in to every opportunity of procrastination. But at the end of the day, I’m back to that same exact state. The hole is still there.